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Ashley & Josh walk in the park with Brownie & their baby-to-be.

I will tell you something true, that most childfree women do not say.

My heart squirms with mixed emotions when one of my friends tells me she is pregnant. I feel happy, because I know my friend is happy; I feel sad, because I know our relationship will change; and I feel… odd, I suppose, because I cannot relate to the powerful desire to be a mother.

I have an amazing mother of my own, who demonstrated in transcendent ways what motherhood is and can be. My example is strong and certain. But I still have never felt that pull, beyond a slight wonderment as other beautiful women in my life choose motherhood.

When Ashley told me she was pregnant, I felt all these things and more, because I have known Ashley since we were teenagers still living under our parents’ roofs. We’ve been immediate friends, then grown apart, then come together again in a bond not unlike sisterhood. She is one of the great loves of my life, and so I cried when she told me that she was expecting a new little person to join her family. I cried because she was happy; I cried because things would change; I cried because…

Because she will be a magnificent mother. And I am so proud to be her friend.

Any day now my phone will ring, and I will, with luck, join Ashley as she brings this tiny human into the world. And I will feel it all, all over again.


2 Comments to Ashley & Josh walk in the park with Brownie & their baby-to-be.

  1. Ashley B.

    You’re such an amazing and supportive friend, darling. I’m so happy to have you share in this journey with me. Love you.

  2. Such beautiful words Anne.These images are filled with such mystery, anticipation and joy. Which is perfect because that is exactly what it feels like to wait for your tiny human to join you. <3